Thursday, November 27, 2014

Heart Of Hearts: Happy Thanksgiving

I woke up today with inspiration and such wonder , which i always seem to have had unless something is going on and which i was lately lacking. So i woke up today and laid in bed and I look to my left and see that there is no other place id rather be than right where I was. I felt lucky but over all thankful for my life so far and thankful for the people that I love and love me the people that matter. And in a short description those people would be my significant other and my family because everyone else is just a stranger if you really think about it. Then i finally got out of bed and turned on a movie as i was getting ready. Laugh If you want but i saw that last dance scene from Step Up Revolution and then it hit me that so many people give up on their dreams and things they love for different reasons but the giving up is the point. And it sucks to be someone who ends up sad and bitter in life because you were too scared to take a chance on something good.. something you believed and something you loved. This thanksgiving I am beyond thankful for the people in my life over anything else because those people have been there for me, and there is one in particular who did noy have to be there for me but instead of walking away that person stayed and has shown me and is showing me everyday to be a better person because no one is perfect, that person is the person who has encouraged me when I've been down and so many other things. But back to the point of this post never give up on what you believe in because you will eventually regret it. We all live and then eventually we die, so it is much more rewarding to say that at the end of the day you did what you loved and what made you happy in life, whatever it may be in life that makes you happy do it. Whether it is being in love and maybe struggling because no relationship is perfect, doing what you love for a living, exploring the world, following summer around the world, being a dancer, whatever it is that you love do it now because to it is better to say you have done it than to see others do it and you never having the chance to be in that same place.


HAPPY THANKSGIVING !!! :]
                                                         xx -Steph


Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Heart of Hearts: Each Person One World

No matter how surrounded we are, we always end up alone eventually.

People go out and do things like work, hang out with friends, go grocery shopping, go for a run, hang out with family, etc. So it is kind of impossible to be surrounded at all times, heck even when you're surrounded at times you may find yourself feeling completely alone (mentally or something like that anyway) Its like when you're in your own head keeping your thoughts to yourself, you know you think and think and its like you're transported into this whole completely different world; the one that lives inside your head with the things you dream and hope for, the things that make you angry but you don't say out loud, your fears (even if others including yourself may find them stupid).

 There are many things, but in its entirety what down to the very root makes you the person you are such as your memories, your experiences, the struggles and the things that you continue to experience everyday until God decides to shut the lights out for good (scary  right?).
A coffee shop is quite an interesting place to experience people and see in some form the detailed way we behave in different situations, everybody's impatiently waiting for their coffee angry,sleepy,over worked and some of the time even hungover. In that moment we overlook the fact that we're all just human and that we only have two hands, and can only move so quickly in a place that hardly can hold more than thirty people, we also fail to notice that there's only four or five people working behind the counter at a time and that at least two of them is going to have to take your order.

I guess that the point I'm trying to make here is that as they say every person is their own world in a way, and that more 75% percent of the time if not more we are selfish to our own needs and our own schedule and just what we want. We sometimes turn our everyday life's into a big bowl of  "me, me, ME." This is when things go south with those around us, when its always about us. My grandma once said to me she thought people had been made to in times of need not always but sometimes to just watch out one for the other, and help each other out.
But it doesn't really happen like that not often anyway, prime example and completely relevant to the fact that sometimes we're just plain selfish. When someone is gay and they come out to their family it's never okay EVER with their family; the people who are supposed to be there to help in times of need, in times when the rest of the world is judging them. Instead they decide to be angry,and in denial to the fact that a person is just who they are.

Being gay does not ever under any circumstance make someone less human, never does it degrade the quality of their being it, just means they think and feel a bit differently than you do. When people aren't accepting of not just this situation but any situation they cannot change that's were the selfishness comes in to play, families for example worry about the image of their "perfectly" brought up and polished union to be stained because one of the group is just a tad different. How in the world does that make you a good person?
 It doesn't, it just goes to show how judgmental people can be. I mean who was to tell you that..that super adorable baby boy or girl you brought into the world would one day be a little different and not even in gigantic way, it doesn't mean you raised them wrong or that there's something wrong or off about them.
 Who was to say they'd find their own person one day and want to embrace that person they know they are, they weren't going to stay tiny forever and you knew that. The judging never helps specially when, you never even tried to understand or listen to the reason why. The judging and the lack of support only leaves them to the cruel hard world way to soon, and that only eventually leads to that person taking their lifes , and in a sense it was your fault too for not being there when they needed you. Its not okay to always be selfish, specially when there's someone who you should be helping, who actually needs you. Maybe its true that each person is their own world but that doesn't mean we should forget about all the other worlds walking past us down the street.


                                                         xx -Steph